So while on my lunch today, I noticed that I had a missed call (but no voice mail) from Dr Graman. I got a wee bit of butterflies in my stomach, took a deep breath, and dialed. The receptionist took a few moments to locate the nurse (and she was leaving in 20 minutes, I caught her right in time) who would tell me what was going on. I guess I did NOT ovulate in the month of April. Which now means I have to make another appointment after I have my period in order to have this other procedure to make sure my tubes and everything baby related are clear and not blocked or scarred up or anything. And if everything checks out ok with that test, I'm pretty sure I'll be going on Clomid and maybe one other drug to help me ovulate, which Dr Graman is very positive about helping me get pregnant within a few months. Goodness I hope so, and I hope everything goes ok with my other test. Here is some info on Clomid for those interested (Clomid Info)
It feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, knowing that no matter what I was doing or not doing, the 9 months of stress and craziness has a reason. Dr Graman doesn't and can't know about any other months, but I'm sure if I didn't ovulate this month, I probably didn't any other month either. It' so great to know that whatever guilt I may have had, isn't my fault.
I can tell Ken is excited too, he was talking about saving all the money we're getting from Jared living with us into a baby fund, to beef it back up since we have basically nothing saved any more. I love that he's already thinking ahead. Here hoping that everything comes back great at my next appointment!
Friday, April 27, 2012
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Ovulation and testing
Well I have my blood test on Wednesday to figure out what's going on with my hormones, and to see if I've ovulated or not this month. And a few days after that, I'm thinking either Friday or Monday, I'll have some answers. I'm really hoping all that this is is PCOS, and not scarring or blockage. I really don't want to have to go through more surgery or something to fix this. I've been thinking lately, that if given the chance to go back and have a do over, I would not have done a D&C. The surgery seems to caused complications for so many women, many of which have lost their fertility completely because of complications from a surgery, and I would have thought about it more. I wish I had had a different doctor after my first miscarriage, that the ER could have referred me to anyone else but Dr Jung. The whole experience was confusing and stressful, and during such a stressful time in my life, I wish they had taken more time with me and explained the risks better, told me options, jut in general spent more time with me regarding the situation. I really wish Dr Graman wasn't retiring, I like him so much already! If he's anything in labor and delivery like he was at my last appointment, I would love to have him as my OB. But unfortunately that wont happen.
I guess having scarring from a D&C is called Asherman's syndrome, and can only be fixed by more surgery. Here is the wiki page about it. Asherman's Syndrome.
It seems so complicated, and I really hope this is something I don't have to deal with.
After reading more about PCOS, I seem to have a lot of those symptoms (although not all), and it would explain a lot about me physically. I guess common signs are more masculine features, like hair growth (on the face, the feet, and midsection, all of which I have), weight gain especially around the midsection (also have), more acne (had acne since I was in 5th grade, so this makes sense too)... the only thing I don't have is the menstrual irregularity. Since I first got my period, I've always been pretty regular, although since I've been pregnant before it seems to be a little wonky, coming sooner than before pregnancy (4 weeks to the day before versus every 3 weeks give or take). Here is a link to read up more about PCOS too (Polycystic Overy Syndrome)
I guess I'll just have to wait and see what my blood tests say.
I'm becoming more and more convinced I'll never have a baby with every passing day. Starting to eel super gloomy about all this. Ugh.
I guess having scarring from a D&C is called Asherman's syndrome, and can only be fixed by more surgery. Here is the wiki page about it. Asherman's Syndrome.
It seems so complicated, and I really hope this is something I don't have to deal with.
After reading more about PCOS, I seem to have a lot of those symptoms (although not all), and it would explain a lot about me physically. I guess common signs are more masculine features, like hair growth (on the face, the feet, and midsection, all of which I have), weight gain especially around the midsection (also have), more acne (had acne since I was in 5th grade, so this makes sense too)... the only thing I don't have is the menstrual irregularity. Since I first got my period, I've always been pretty regular, although since I've been pregnant before it seems to be a little wonky, coming sooner than before pregnancy (4 weeks to the day before versus every 3 weeks give or take). Here is a link to read up more about PCOS too (Polycystic Overy Syndrome)
I guess I'll just have to wait and see what my blood tests say.
I'm becoming more and more convinced I'll never have a baby with every passing day. Starting to eel super gloomy about all this. Ugh.
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Jennica
It is with a heavy heart that I have to write this post at all. On Thursday, April 12, I lost a dear friend of mine, Jennica. It was a very sudden passing, and I'm still in shock.
I had kind of thought of what else I would say in this blog about her passing, but the words have not come to me now. I mourn her loss, even though Heaven gained an angel on Thursday. Maybe I'll post other things about her later.
I had kind of thought of what else I would say in this blog about her passing, but the words have not come to me now. I mourn her loss, even though Heaven gained an angel on Thursday. Maybe I'll post other things about her later.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
April update
Well, no baby this month, I started my period on Monday. I was pretty disappointed, I had a little feeling all month long that I was indeed pregnant. Guess not.
I did go to see Dr Graman again today, which was good. Big thank you to Jared, Kacey, and Ti for meeting with me this morning to pray for peace, comfort and answers today before my appointment. It was very much appreciated, than you guys!
So this is what Dr Graman said: I asked about blood testing, to test my thyroid for normalcy and I also wanted to test my level of testosterone, since I have excess facial hair (way more than a normal woman should have). And he said "well with knowing it's been 9 months, and that you want to do tests (I even showed him my fertility tracker on my phone) there are two things, two ways we can approach this. It depends on if you're ovulating or not. Let's do some blood testing at a certain point in your cycle, and I'll get the results of if you're ovulating this month or not. If not, then we can fix that, put you on something like clomid, to help you ovulate, and then probably a few months with that and you'll probably be pregnant. It also may be that the facial hair and other minor things may be some sort of PCOS, where there are small cysts on the ovaries, which hinders ovulation.
If you are ovulating, then we need to do an x ray, which isn't 100% but it does a pretty good job, to see if there is scar tissue or a blockage related to your D&C which may be the reason"
Every thing he said made total sense, especially the PSOC (mostly). He also said that RH positive, and RH negative isn't a factor, and pure testosterone isn't to blame. I filled out a form for work to take the 25th off, since I'm going to St Joes to get my blood tested, and Dr Graman will have the results in a few days, and will call me when he gets them.
One unfortunately thing, is Dr Graman is retiring in June, but he will give me recommendations for doctors in Tacoma, which is awesome. He says his goal is to help me get pregnant if possible by that time though, so I guess we'll see.
I guess I'll have to wait until the end of this month to get some real answers.
I did go to see Dr Graman again today, which was good. Big thank you to Jared, Kacey, and Ti for meeting with me this morning to pray for peace, comfort and answers today before my appointment. It was very much appreciated, than you guys!
So this is what Dr Graman said: I asked about blood testing, to test my thyroid for normalcy and I also wanted to test my level of testosterone, since I have excess facial hair (way more than a normal woman should have). And he said "well with knowing it's been 9 months, and that you want to do tests (I even showed him my fertility tracker on my phone) there are two things, two ways we can approach this. It depends on if you're ovulating or not. Let's do some blood testing at a certain point in your cycle, and I'll get the results of if you're ovulating this month or not. If not, then we can fix that, put you on something like clomid, to help you ovulate, and then probably a few months with that and you'll probably be pregnant. It also may be that the facial hair and other minor things may be some sort of PCOS, where there are small cysts on the ovaries, which hinders ovulation.
If you are ovulating, then we need to do an x ray, which isn't 100% but it does a pretty good job, to see if there is scar tissue or a blockage related to your D&C which may be the reason"
Every thing he said made total sense, especially the PSOC (mostly). He also said that RH positive, and RH negative isn't a factor, and pure testosterone isn't to blame. I filled out a form for work to take the 25th off, since I'm going to St Joes to get my blood tested, and Dr Graman will have the results in a few days, and will call me when he gets them.
One unfortunately thing, is Dr Graman is retiring in June, but he will give me recommendations for doctors in Tacoma, which is awesome. He says his goal is to help me get pregnant if possible by that time though, so I guess we'll see.
I guess I'll have to wait until the end of this month to get some real answers.
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